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Name: Shiya
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: San Bernardino
Birthday: 9/6/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: DDR, Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Tsubasa, Pita Ten, drawing, writing, singing, dancing, Hanging out with my best friends, traveling, anime conventions, cosplay, sewing, aim, closeness, daydreaming, decorating, eating, more DDR, joking around, politics (sometimes), Jpop, Alternative Rock, Techno, Pixy Misa, Making Memories, and stuff.
Expertise: Art? Cosplay? XP
Occupation: Student
Industry: Animation
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  X3 Shiya
MSN: Midnight_Guardian@msn.com
Yahoo:  khsong_kairi@yahoo.com
Member Since:
9/28/2005
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| It's just one of those days...
Wake up after having two nightmares, which were really really bad, and concerned my heart a lot. Actually...just having these nightmares tore my heart apart, and made me worry even more than I did last night..even if they weren't real. Life will be wonderful tomorrow...maybe...
But right now, I just want to die. | | |
| EDIT EDIT EDIT I did not lose the look-a-like contest.. T__T I won it to my surprise. FIRST PLACE.....YAY!!!!!!!!
Okii, I gotta go back to working on cosplay. I've been working hard on mine and Andrew's cosplay stuff, and I'm trying my best to work around school right now. I'm going Monday through Thursday, and this is what my schedule looks like so far. I might drop a class cause I feel overwhelmed with too many units. So much money was spent on school supplies. I went to Home Depot for Wire mesh and spool of wire. I went to walmart for cement glue, fabric glue, sketch books, etc. Went to Office Max for a jump drive, pencils, etc... went to Joanns for the last of the fabric stuff. I've been painting Andrew's cape thing, and I really like how it looks so far. I gotta get back to work. TT Monday and Wednesdays:
JAPN 100A- Elementary Japanese 10:50-12:30PM
Tues/Thurs: AL301 9:50-11:30
ART 180 Intro to Computer Graphics 1:30-4:00PM
ART 109 3-D Art 4:20-6:50PM | | |
| Stay away from a woman on Menopause. Your life will be over if you haven't left your house sooner.... | | |
| -sigh-
I know it's not about winning. I lost the look-a-like contest big time, I know it. How I've worked so hard to be a wonderful kairi, but I never am good enough. My best friend didn't even vote for me, and I felt like she rubbed it in my face with her blog entry.. -.- *doesn't think she really appreciates me* I shouldn't worry about that anymore.. It's not even about voting for friends anyway, but just something about it makes me terribly sad. We haven't really been close, and I feel like something big in me has died for a while now. I've been feeling that way with a lot of people, where I want to feel close to them so bad but I feel pushed away. I've always tried to put my friends before relationship, but it's not something I'm really happy with. I feel like I've made so many sacrifices for my friends, and I only wish they could do that for me once in a while. I was also thinking of erasing my existance from the internet as well...like delete myspace, cosplay, livejournal, and everything that I feel is keeping me down. I'm living in a dream, and I just want to wake up from it. I'm still living in 7 years ago, where everything between me and my best friend was perfect and most enjoyable. But now I feel like it shouldn't even matter, and that it's time I just close it off... because let's face it, I've never meant as much to her as she's meant to me, and why live that way? I'm too attached when I shouldn't be, and I'm depressing over another person's decision or immaturity when I have so much to deal with on my own.. | | |
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